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"For me, to live is Christ and to die is gain." -Philippians 1:21

Saturday, December 7, 2013

Untimely Self-Destruction

HEY SO I'm sick of editing so this is raw words that I'm vomiting out. Don't judge lol.

You know how I feel? If we go generic, I would say I feel like a bird who's wings have been clipped, thirsty for the crisp rush of flight. If we go nerdy (yeah!!), I would say I feel like Sirius Black, forced to live a life sentence in his moldy house while all the other OWL members are out there fighting the Death Eaters (who are mostly Slytherins...wow a double chain has been placed on Sirius...he is forced to live in the Slytherins' kingdom, who are his enemies, and he cannot fight against them #neverthoughtofthat # itdoesn'tmakesenseactually :( ). If we go all political, I would say I'm fine. If we go all HONEST, I would I am feeling hella jealous of other people and I'll explain why soon!!!

*note: yeah I guess Christians do swear hurhurhur gotta problem

Something that nags me everytime I go to Speech and Debate practice is that fact that I haven't gone to any tournaments this year. I almost wish that last year I hadn't done well so my pride wouldn't swell up. Well, actually, nah I'm glad I did well last year. Because of it, I was able to realize that my hard work could equal success and that I did have the potential to speak well in front of other people. It was an affirmation and a confidence-booster that I could lead other people and verbally analyze with them. Now this is starting to sound a lot like a speech, so I'll shut up because speeches are all professional and weird. 

Basically, I miss the rush of pride when I break at tournaments! Ughh yes, I am super duper competitive and it's super unhealthy. I even feel like enumerating my awards right here and now, but that would be hypocritical, because that's exactly what led me to feel sad in the first place (I mean other people...enumerating their awards). Coincidentally, I was not able to attend any of the tournaments so far this year (I always had something that came up...honor choir (WHICH WAS awesome), PAN, etc.). Thus, I yearn and yearn and yearn to prove myself to others that I still am currently a great speaker and stuff. But what does this matter? I think God noticed how prideful I was about my speaking and how that started to become part of my identity. It was perhaps His doing that I couldn't go to any tournaments so far...to humble me up.

Okay so I'm in this event called Impromptu and basically there's this girl on facebook who's new to impromptu and she won 2 awards in it so far and keeps publicizing about it. It annoys me for some reason (to the point where I feel like blocking her...which is dumb because it's two awards, right?), even though I fully know I should be congratulating her. There's a part of me that screams "I WOULDVE GOTTEN THOSE AWARDS IF I HAD ATTENDED," but part of life is telling your selfish self to shut up. And part of me says...what if I lost the ability to do well? What if my competitors got so advanced that I can't break anymore? 

What if my wings were permanently clipped...like Beethoven when he lost his hearing?

So yeah...worry and jealousy is not a good combo. What a ball of pessimism. 

I have been doing not-so-well in my classes. I hardly understand the concepts of some of the stuff I'm studying, and next week I believe I have five tests (and the week after is finals). I should've done more earlier, but I'm gonna trust God that I'll get through all of this and that I'll have enough energy to study for everything too!

By the way, I feel like people...even Christians themselves...perceive Christianity as a moral standard. Like, to be a Christian, one must forgive, love, do good things, etc. Sometimes we think it's a lot about doing, when actually, there ain't no morals involved in the core of Christianity. Christianity is almost the opposite...realizing that you'll never be perfect and there's nothing you can do to get into a perfect heaven (cuz we ain't perfect) and then trusting Jesus to cover for your sins. It's not about hustling, it's about being? Did that make sense? I hope it made sense. yolo right?

Okay I'm going to study now cuz ughhhhhihihgiheogn

Saturday, November 2, 2013

They Kiss Again Ep 4 Recap 1/2

Man, it's been too long. MUCHO KISSES

Okay, yes I've realized that each episode is hecka long so from now on I think I'll break the recaps into two parts.

By the way, if you aren't that wrapped up in Taiwanese entertainment, I should tell you that our very own Zhi Shu (Joe Cheng) is going to be collaborating with TKA's director again to film a new drama!

As long as Director Winnie doesn't give Joe a character as unfitting for him as Frank (from Love or Bread), I think things should turn out great! Since Joe's 'wife' Ariel already has TWO Golden Bell Awards BOTH under Director Winnie, now it's definitely Joe's turn. It's also a breath of fresh air to know that Joe is working on new projects because the most of the dramas I've watched have a lot of inactive drama actors (aka currently not doing any dramas and probably will never again. for example, Ariel Lin and Ethan Ruan, two of my favs D:). With Joe back on the scene and Director Winnie's widespread popularity, whatever drama they are preparing for is sure to be a big hit.

As an actor, Joe's versatility is rather limited, but in the roles he is suited for, he shines brighter than all competition. I'm pretty sure Director Winnie realizes this (I hope he watched Love or Bread because that was a disaster). I guess it's better to be really good at one thing rather than okay at everything. But then again, we have Ariel, who is extremely versatile and pretty much perfect at everything she does (it is rumored that she can film everything in one take).

Okay, and now we have episode 4! I haven't been visiting my Taiwanese kids in so long, so I don't know exactly what is going on. But that's alright, we'll catch up together.

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Xiang Qin has successfully escaped Zhi Shu's grasp and is leaping through the school in the dark. She goes to her desk to try to find the test papers for Class A tomorrow, but she fails. A policeman outside the window shines his flashlight on her face and accuses her of thievery. Xiang Qin worsens the situation by shouting at him not the shine it in her face and that it's none of his business! She even shines her flashlight in his face too (lub).

Thus, Xiang Qin is sent to the police station, with Zhi Shu coming to bail her....AGAIN?
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He looks resigned and says to the police, "I apologize for my wife's actions." Xiang Qin chatters away and tell the police, "See? This is my husband. Just as I told you...very handsome." Xiang Qin also apologizes for her actions to the head police and Zhi Shu tells Xiang Qin that tomorrow she should just honestly say that she lost the papers (His irritated face OMG it's asdfjkl;asdfjkl;asdfjkl; <3). Xiang Qin apologizes and says she simply wanted to solve her problems by herself. He also says that she should stop meddling in Yu Shu and Hao Mei's affairs, but she retorts that if Hao Mei wants to get to the Top 100, then she'll help her get there!

The next day, Mr. Hire-me-as-a-fake-teacher-for-$6-an-hour starts reprimanding Xiang Qin for being so bad at teaching and at life (he's a bad actor, I think even I could do better than him!). Afterwards, Xiang Qin is walking across the school bridge (what a beautiful school, by the way), when some students stop her and tease her about her arrest last night. Everyone she passes is gossiping about her, which is the opposite of her envisioned fawning students. Hao Mei stops her and says that she's really glad that nobody's talking about Yu Shu rejecting her yesterday and says thank you to Xiang Qin. Xiang Qin asks her what she's thanking her for, and Hao Mei says since everyone is so busy talking about Xiang Qin's stupidity, they forgot about her! Of course, Xiang Qin doesn't really understand how that's suppose to make her sad or whatever, so she resumes her cheerful personality. That is probably the best feature of Xiang Qin; she doesn't let these situations affect her happiness that much and she is quick to forgive people who have insulted her. She tells Hao Mei that she'll tutor her afterschool everyday so that she can get to the Top 100!

Damn. Another cake. This is the weirdest looking one in the history of ISWAK/TKA. It looks like two huge pancakes smushed together. (Prettiest cake goes to Zhi Shu's Christmas cake, of course).
Hao Mei comes after school, and Jiang Mama and Xiang Qin are busy matchmaking Yu Shu and her. Later at night, Xiang Qin is tutoring Hao Mei, when Yu Shu and Zhi Shu come to spy on them. Xiang Qin is having trouble and Yu Shu tells Zhi Shu that this whole thing is stupid and that he better not help tutor Hao Mei. Zhi Shu smiles deviously and tells him to eat dinner. Zhi Shu enters and asks Hao Mei what's going on, and Hao Mei says that Xiang Qin let her do the problem, but after five minutes she fell asleep! Zhi Shu looks at her and asks Hao Mei how the process is going. Hao Mei says that they're on problem 2, and Zhi Shu exclaims that they've only done 1 problem in 1 and a half hours (and that the first problem's answer is incorrect).

He says that he will tutor her, but she can't tell Xiang Qin anything about it, because at least she tried. I think he's thinking back to earlier in the episode where Xiang Qin told him that she wanted to resolve problems herself and become more independent (as Zhi Shu told her to do earlier).

Later on, Xiang Qin and Hao Mei race to the board and find out that Hao Mei is 97th in the school! She scored into the top 100, which means that she can be Yu Shu's friend now. Yu Shu unenthusiastically says, "I guess we're good friends now" and falls down the steps.

At night, Xiang Qin stands on the balcony outside of Yu Shu's room and asks him how does it feel to have Hao Mei as a friend? He responds by closing the curtain on his window.

Zhi Shu is sleeping in their pink bed, when he notices that Xiang Qin isn't there. Xiang Qin, being the thoughtful wife that she is, placed a stuffed dog on her pillow (to make Zhi Shu think that she was there). Zhi Shu goes to investigate where she is, and he finds her downstairs, rehearsing what she'll say in tomorrow's teacher examination. Yu Shu joins him and says, "Still practicing?! She already practiced three times upstairs." Xiang Qin continues rehearsing and imagines the potential questions she'll have to answer. She imitates Yu Shu and asks, "Does Mr. Almost hint at modern people?" Xiang Qin rehearses her candid answer. The real Yu Shu looks at her with disgust and says, "What a stupid question! I would never ask that." Zhi Shu looks at him right before Yu Shu goes upstairs and says, "I know you don't like stupid people, but please do not bully my wife." (BEST HUSBAND AWARD!!).

The next day, Xiang Qin tries to do what she rehearsed, but she stutters and starts doing her unprofessional Xiang Qin habits. She goes through the lesson more smoothly than she did in the past, but a student asks her to analyze and compare two passages. Yu Shu defends her and says that it is the student's responsibility to analyze, and that he shouldn't be interrupting the teacher's lesson. The student asks Yu Shu to ask her a question, and Yu Shu grudgingly mutters, "Does Mr. Almost hint at modern people?" Xiang Qin happily gives him her rehearsed answer.

Even Xiang Qin's evaluators say that she has improved a lot. One of them tells her, "Student, don't run in the halls!" She replies, "Okay!" and keeps running (lol). Xiang Qin is bubbly with excitement when she tells Zhi Shu that she did well today. Zhi Shu looks slightly amused as always, and Xiang Qin says that it was such a coincidence that Yu Shu asked her a question that she prepared! She said that God must have seen her hard work and blessed her because of it. Zhi Shu goes along with this logic and mutters, "Lucky fellow." Xiang Qin asks him what he said, but he said it was nothing.

The next day is Xiang Qin's last day teaching school. She gives a very sentimental speech to the "cute and innocent" faces in Class A and says that she'll never forget them (even though they deride her all the time). They give her a bouquet of flowers (the bouquets in Taiwan look 10x bigger and prettier than our wimpy dozen roses here D:) and kindly request that she never consider becoming a teacher due to her uniqueness (overload on sugar-coating). Xiang Qin understands their main point though, and walks dejectedly to her last class, Class F.

Class F surprises her by singing a song and piling her with gifts. In her office, the students say that they actually really like her. Xiang Qin is shocked and says that she thought no one wanted her to become a teacher. Hao Mei reassures her by saying, "Every student is different, so the teachers should be different too!" Her dreams of being idolized by students is coming true!!

Zhi Shu is outside washing a car (and Xiang Qin is inside eating) when Xiang Qin asks Jiang Mama if she can go somewhere adventurous during their school break. Jiang Mama says that she should go somewhere with Zhi Shu, but Xiang Qin replies that Zhi Shu is busy over the break.





Wednesday, October 16, 2013

The Voice Battle Rounds-Night Two Recaps

As always, by the lovely Esther Kao.


Jacob Poole vs. Matthew Schuler
Going into this, I thought that Matthew would cream Jacob. Partially because Matthew was a 4-chair and I had absolutely no recollection of Jacob Poole’s blind, because his audition was a montage. Anyway, listening to the battle, it seemed that Christina chose the song to complement Jacob’s voice, and to challenge Matthew a bit. I do think that Jacob really stepped it up, but on the other hand, Matthew did too. The battle was really even, and Christina, clearly going off from Matthew’s blind, chose Matthew. Of course, it was to be expected. Christina’s smart enough not to let a 9 second (or however long it was) 4-chair slip right through her hands.

Kat Robichaud vs. R. Anthony
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t2xK3hRrGQ8 (can't. get. the. video. to. upload.)
This was such an entertaining battle round to watch, partially because Kat was bouncing up and down like a spring the whole time. Her dancing wasn’t bad, necessarily—it was… interesting. But aside from that, they both delivered on this sappy song, but I have to say that Kat threw herself in wholeheartedly. Perhaps that’s where all the energy for her epic tippy-toes came from later in the song. You’ve got to wonder how she managed to tiptoe in her 4-inchish high boots, though… Anyway, after that show, CeeLo just had to give her the win, didn’t he?

Monika Leigh vs. Ray Boudreaux
Dang, I really liked this battle. I’ve dug Ray’s voice since the blinds, and his daughter is like ridiculously cute—he is working that unfair advantage, haha. I thought they complimented each other really well, while still managing to stay true to themselves. Ray here felt more solid, so I was rooting for him when Blake was making his decision. I was also impressed by Monika, however, and am glad that CeeLo stole her. Overall pretty happy with this battle round.

There were also three lovely montaged battle rounds, because the producers of the Voice are lovely and fair to all their artists like that:
Cole Vosbury vs. Lupe Carroll
                Winner: Cole Vosbury
E. G. Daily vs. Sam Cerniglia
                Winner: E. G. Daily (go Dotty!)
Ashley Dubose vs. Justin Blake
                Winner: Ashley Dubose

The Voice-Battle Rounds Night One Recap!

Let's welcome guest writer Esther Kao, who is reporting on the first battle rounds of Season 5!


And the battle rounds start off with a BANG! Let's go baby!
Tonight we're serving:
Donna Allen vs. Tessanne Chin
Briana Cuoco vs. Jacquie Lee
Anthony Paul vs. Caroline Pennell
Shelbie Z vs. Justin Chain
Gray vs. Nic Hawk
Amber Nicole vs. Timyra-Joi





Donna Allen vs. Tessanne Chin




While this was definitely a stellar battle round, I have to admit that I was completely unsurprised by how it went. It made a lot of sense—Tessanne = great singer + Donna = great singer equals great battle round. And it was. Adam picked Tessanne, which I do concur with, because her vocals are just a little more polished and controlled. What did surprise me, though, is the fact that no one. Stole. Donna. She has this awesome rasp and was clearly up to par with Tessanne, who is in her own little level. So I’m a bit baffled as how this one played out.




Briana Cuoco vs. Jacquie Lee




Before I watched this battle, I was completely unimpressed with Briana Cuoco’s voice, albeit having a soft side for her, since she’s Mary Bennet in Lizzie Bennet Diaries, and had a high opinion Jacquie Lee, since her cover of Back to Black during the blinds was extremely interesting. This song, however, brought out an entirely new, sultry side to Ms. Cuoco, which only has me further convinced that song choice is key. Jacquie started out a bit nervous, but by the end of the song she’d won me over. I agreed with Christina’s choice to keep her, because although Briana impressed me, I can see Jacquie going so much further in the long run.
And by the way, Briana made a terrible choice by choosing Blake over CeeLo. Not only does CeeLo seem better equipped for a singer like Briana, Blake has a history of sending deserving artists home in favor of his boring, original team (think MarissaAnn vs Julio Cesar Chavez and Luke Edgemon vs Holly Tucker). Hopefully the coaches are going to be using those knockout steals, because Briana faces a very high chance of going home during the Knockouts. Oh, and is it just me, or does Briana sound like Team Blake’s Michelle Raitzin from Season 4?

Anthony Paul vs. Caroline Pennell
First of all, Caroline is one of the most adorable things I have seen in my life. Secondly, I loved her interpretation, and the way she scoops and dives and just the stunning simplicity in her voice. The only thing I can see becoming an issue is her becoming another Melanie Martinez—where everything she sings sounds exactly. The. Same. Hopefully she’ll learn the key to being interestingly and consistently unique. Meanwhile, Mr. Anthony Paul was pulling some heartstrings of his own. He reminded me a bit of a cello, actually, pulling and pushing—pardon my analogy. And is it just me, or does he look a bit like a mannequin? Or an alien.
As for Christina’s steal—she must have really liked his falsetto. But I am reasonably pleased with this battle round.

Shelbie Z vs. Justin Chain
I really do like country. And I thought that these two country singers did a great job. But it was just so expected. I was pleasantly surprised by Shelbie Z’s belting powers, but also agreed a lot with CeeLo—Justin Chain wasn’t really given a lot of room to shine. And they were really pleasant to listen to, but it isn’t the kind of performance that has me on my feet. Shelbie Z was the obvious choice, so I wasn’t surprised when Blake went for it.

Gray vs. Nic Hawk
I wasn’t sure what I was expecting from this pairing, especially since the song they were singing was Domino by Jessie J. But Grey really, really impressed me. Her vocals remind me a bit of Danielle Bradbury’s (yes, I’m still bitter), and the way she took control over the song was electrifying. Looking back at it, there was nothing hugely special about the battle, but for some reason it managed to hook me. I agree with Adam’s statement—Grey’s potential is limitless. She’s like a pop Danielle Bradbury. I’m excited to see her grow emotionally as a singer, because technically she’s almost 100% there. Nic, on the other hand, brought a sense of fun to the song. While the style of the song was definitely more up Grey’s alley, I thought that the overall vibe was something that fit Nic’s quirky personality pretty well. I was a little surprised that Blake stole him, though—Blake tends to steal girls because he doesn’t want them to cry. So perhaps he’s going to actually take Nic through to the lives. We’ll see.

Amber Nicole vs. Timyra-Joi
This was such an expected battle. I feel like ever since Amanda and Trevin’s battle, the coaches have constantly been trying to meet that same bar. So I came to this battle knowing exactly what I was going to hear—a lot of big notes and vocal acrobatics. And I wasn’t surprised. I have to admit, though, that I was pleasantly surprised by Amber, because her voice was interestingly nuanced, while Timyra seemed a bit delayed at times, which is the same issue I had with her during her Blind. So I was pleased when Christina handed Amber Nicole the win, although I had guessed that she would pick Timyra. What shocked me, though, was the fact that no one stole Miss Joi, because I’d thought that the coaches loved her. But whatever, I wish her luck.

That's it folks! Esther will hop in once in a while to give her opinions on...life...and TV shows.


Thank you :) Have an amazing day

Saturday, October 12, 2013

I'M ALIVE

Yes I know, what a useless post. Yes, I'm still time-restrained and too unmotivated to write.

Bad news:
I may discontinue TKA recaps after episode 10! I am definitely going to force myself to finish recapping up to ep 10, but I think I'm losing interest in this drama (like WHAATTT? ITS JOE AND ARIEL HOW COULD YOU DO THIS ALYSSA!!!). I don't know, as I've said before, it's one of those dramas without a plot, and the only thing that's really carrying it is the romance between the two main leads. And when you get used to that, well...
Yeah and I also want to expand my watchings. Usually on the weekends I really feel like watching dramas but I've been avoiding them lately because 1) it distracts me from homework and learning, and I'm already pretty distracted 2) The Voice and Masterchef Junior have started and I seriously don't want to start any new shows (even though I know there's a ton of good American/Asian TV shows that I'm missing out on) because I know it'll distract me in eternity 3) I know it'll take me forever to watch if I start watching because I'm not one of those people who can watch 10 min of a drama that I like and then put it down for a week. NO. I must finish the whole episode in one seating! Or two. Or three.

So yup, I haven't watched one this week. I wish that some amazing Taiwanese drama would just come out like RIGHT NOW. Ugh, why doesn't Ethan Ruan make Taiwanese dramas anymore? All he's done for his last couple of gigs was trim his hair super short and filmed some military movies (yay ._.). COME BACK TO DRAMA SHOWBIZ BABY

School:

Whenever I hear someone talking, it's about school. WHAT IS SO INTERESTING ABOUT SCHOOL? Come on, shouldn't friendship go deeper than that? Okay well whatever now I will be a hypocrite and talk about school.

Books:
GUESS WHAT I've actually had barely any time to read any new books :O. In class we read Lord of the Flies, and our Lit teacher makes us write (A LOT) so I've been spending SO MUCH TIME trying to write good analyses of the Lord of the Flies. Ugh. It was tough cuz I'm so slow at writing and since I know it always takes me forever, I try to put it last on my list. So I end up writing my butt off from 7:00-12:30pm reading and writing and trying to make sense and editing my work. It's tough ._. I've always wanted an analytical teacher, but this is sort of killing me. Thank goodness we're starting a new book, otherwise I think I would've died. The problem is that we weren't allowed to write about anything we discussed in class or wrote about before. And we pretty much have discussion everyday, so there's not much that I can think of that's new, makes sense, AND is analytical. The essay was the hardest part; not only had we spent 4 or so weeks discussing the whole book (which meant we covered pretty much everything), but we had written like 8-ish papers on it already. So basically it's just hard to be original in class. Yup.

But overall, Lord of the Flies is sort of creepy. Don't read it at night; especially the last few chapters. It's not a horror book, but it just gives you an edgy, uncomfortable feeling that the beast is lurking in the corner...

I shall not summarize it because I am DONE with this book. NO MORE.

Also I am reading Thirteen Reasons Why (progress is slow), which is a book about a girl who records thirteen reasons why she killed herself (thirteen people responsible for her death). I think it's fine so far...it's not amazing, but it gives you a good view on how you never know what kind of consequences your loose actions lead to.

I decided to join Duo Interp with Urmila, so that means we have to choose a book to interp about! I don't even think I'm a good actor or a voicer, so I'm kinda nervous ._.


THE VOICE SEASON FIVE IS GREAT SO FAR
XTINA HAS A GREAT TEAM OF GREAT SINGERS
even though usually I always stick by my man Adam, this year I gotta hand it over to the female. Xtina knows what's up and she knows how to get the good singers to her team!

I'm having a bad day guys ._. I've lost my house keys (they're still lost in like school or somewhere help :'( ), my PE clothes (I swear I put them in my backpack, and they weren't in my locker when I checked ._.), and my sweater (it's cold inside ._.)

FIRST WORLD PROBLEMS EXCEPT THE KEY THING BECAUSE UGH NOW WE HAVE TO CHANGE THE LOCK BECAUSE OF MY STUPIDITY

I'm not mad so let's ignore the caps lock.

This is a dum dum post.

You know what I always feel like I don't know the people in my class that well, or the people at Lynbrook. There are so many choices of classes, and I feel like since I am taking a certain set of classes, the same people will always end up in my classes. Someone mentioned it in Aletheia the other day...and I have found it to be true. There's a whole other group of people that I haven't had the opportunity to experience life and classes with simply because of the levels or electives we're taking. How sad. Oh well. Here's to another boring year (cheers! :) )




Sunday, September 15, 2013

In which I egocentrically rant about...myself...

Hello everyone! As you may know, I am an INTP, however, I'd rather not identify myself by my personality. You know what I find very interesting? I find it interesting when people say they look for personality, humor, social skills, and looks when it comes to attraction. This isn't the main point, but I've always found it interesting how society places such an emphasis on humor and personality. I love funny people, but I really sympathize with non-funny people as well (like myself :'( let me go into a corner and cry...OR NOT because it's okay to not be funny!). I feel like every time I meet a new person, I'm pressured to have small talk with them and crack a few jokes along the way. How do people do that?! You barely know the person, so how is it so fluid and easy for some people to make them laugh? There are many things to consider; for one, you don't know whether they are familiar with your objects of irony (what if they are offended? what if they think you're lame?), and secondly it's freaking hard, okay? Even though I'm in the Speech Event called Spont(aneous Speaking), I can't be funny on the spot! The thing is that I guess overthinking it kills your unique-ness, however, it's harder than it seems. Anyway, I remember about a year ago I went on a cruise to Alaska and there was this teen group. The first time I went, I got introduced in a few people, tried small talk (I am horrendous, don't even ask), and it was okay because we were all new. The next time I went, BAM. Everyone had formed their own cliches and some of the people who were willing to talk to me the first time didn't even want to look at me. To make it clear, I wasn't being a jerk or anything, I was honestly trying my best to be myself and be nice (but I was quiet because the people intimidated me...) So I guess society places great emphasis on personality and humor, which kind of sucks for everyone else. But that's okay, because when you're not funny, at least you get to have greater appreciation for all kinds of people. It's like how if you experience homelessness, then you won't be quick to judge homeless people anymore.

You know the past few days we've been having a lot of discussions in Lit, and though I can't say I contribute as much as I originally had (many times I feel like we've exhausted the subjects we discuss everyday), it does really make you analyze more stuff in life. I was walking home last week, and then I started walking in a zig zag formation. You know, if we had grown up thinking that walking in a zig zag formation was the quickest way, we would be ignorant to the fact that walking straight down the sidewalk is soo much faster. Don't you think it's the same in life? Everyone-authors, scientists, etc.-tries to provide an answer to the meaning of life (or pretend to by ending their theory/book with some super vague derivative theme), but I don't think we're worthy of even trying to decipher the meaning ourselves. We only live in a 3D world while walking in a straight line-but what if there was a faster way of walking than in a straight line (think "A Wrinkle in Time")? What if there was 9 dimensions? Who knows? It be mindblowing!

Okay I'm suppose to be doing piano right now. Surprisingly, I don't have much more homework due tomorrow, but I think my grades are goin' down down down down down. It's funny because I should have a B in Chemistry already (yay it's like the 3rd week or so), but school loop keeps supporting me lol! I got solid B's on my last three assignments (which should VERY logically pull down my 90.97 down to a B), but school loop changed and now it rounds up! LOL! So now I have a 91%, which is even higher. Haha #lifeisnice

Oh yes...the first reason why I decided to write this was because I've been thinking lately and I have found that people get to know me is when we analyze life/people in objective ways. It's really interesting actually. Like I can't do small talk. I just can't. Who the heck likes talking about school all day? Well actually a lot of people probably do so I will not judge. I guess the reason I've been thinking about this is recently I liked this guy and I wanted to get to know him better, but there's only small talk to talk about. It's so hard to transition from normal stuff to hard-core analyzing, and obviously I didn't even know if he enjoyed analyzing or not. And anyway, I'm not even sure if I like analyzing anymore because I feel like I've exhausted most of my curious thoughts with Esther, so it's been pretty repetitive (but it is in human nature to repeat...and repeat...and repeat again...this is how theories are formed and math lessons learned!). To be honest, I have found that my personality is quite the bore, so the only thing that's memorable is my ability to talk about others/ideas/morals in an unbiased way. Which is why I find it interesting how everyone places an important emphasis on personality (not a bad thing though).

But then again, I guess it's hard for some people to be analytical! Well then I guess it's okay because I don't only like people who are smart! I like non-intellectual people too, they are super cool, and sometimes they talk about extremely interesting things as well. Yup...

Mary gave me gr9 advice last last retreat and she said the way to make friends is to make them feel comfortable. I've tried, I really have, but I still have a long way to go. Oh well, it's  irrelevant to the bigger picture anyway. Do you realize that once you view life in terms of death (as in you see everything leading up to death), everything becomes irrelevant? In fact, the only thing that seems relevant is after death, because that's where you're going to spend (or be non-existent) most of the time of the universe. Your life is freaking tiny.

But what happened to the guy? I gave up, because I think he likes some other girl anyway and I didn't want to waste my time. LOL sounds so strategic but it's just pushing thoughts out of your mind, if possible.

I am a good listener, so I can listen to people talk about anything and still feel entertained. For others, I was shocked to discover that it sometimes isn't so. Well, I shouldn't be shocked because I've learned to accept it, and I think it's perfectly fine for people to have different capacities for listening. Once I was talking to this kid (not really a kid, like my age) while watching a movie. I thought the conversation was alright; it was mostly small talk but I'm good at listening to small talk. Anyway, I sort of sucked at it as always, but I had the feeling that we sort of sucked at it equally. However, the next time it was interesting to find that this kid didn't want to talk to me as much afterwards, even though we sucked equally. It's okay, no grudges or anything of course, but it was kind of eye-opening. It's always eye-opening when you look at a different perspective and find that something that's so fundamental in your mind that you take it for granted isn't to other people.

For example, I find it obvious that you can be happy without money. Please don't take offense, I do try to keep my mind open and am totally fine with people who disagree with the money thing. Well anyway, it's just a concept that I've believed in so long that it's become a part of me, and naturally I assumed that most people with working minds would think the same thing. However, this week I was talking to my classmate and she said she was stressed about standing out and finding a great college to make lots of money. I asked her if she thought money=happiness and she said yes. She said, how can you be happy when your basic needs aren't met? You need money to survive! I didn't know what to say, lol. Her argument was pretty valid, but I never thought about it that way before. It's very interesting to hear other people's ideas of happiness.

Okay well anyway this is hecka long!

They Kiss Again Ep 3 Recap

OMGEEE IT'S EPISODE THREE!
I haven't watched Taiwanese Dramas in a month!
This episode starts out really well and ends alright.
Yu Shu plays a pretty big role in this episode (he's actually a great child actor!). His new lover, Hao Mei, is a terrible actress. However, Xiang Qin sort of covers up for her, so it's still easy to watch.

A few notes: You'll hate this drama if you're a feminist, a down-to-earth person, or someone who appreciates a good plot. This is a character-focused drama, as in, people watch it for the two main leads. To enjoy the drama, don't think. It's actually quite pleasant and one of the easier dramas to watch (lengthy to recap though, sorry about that).

Zhi Shu continues explaining about the mysteries of DNA and how it impacts everyone. Then, he walks over to where Xiang Qin is sitting and takes her hand.

He says that in the process of figuring out whether to give birth to the next unknown generation, he and his wife will be discussing the possibility of gene mutations and heredity (like Xiang Qin can understand that lol). He says that with her, everyday was filled with miracles (awww). He explains that growing up, he was in the superior class while she was in a low class in terms of academics. He said that they're lives would have never intersected if she hadn't put in so much effort. Because of her, he got to know her, love her, and understand her value (yay!). He says that sometimes that we regard the unknown with terror, but he's learned to respect the weak and minorities (as in low IQ people?) from Xiang Qin. He says that Xiang Qin also helped him discover many great qualities that he himself did not have.

It sounds so cold on paper, but Joe's voice is really smooth and soothing, so it turns into a really sweet momento <3

Later, Xiang Qin is sitting on a bench and Zhi Shu joins her. Zhi Shu says his tie is uncomfortable and asks her if she thought the presentation was boring. She said she didn't and was listening very carefully, but couldn't understand most of it. She asks Zhi Shu if the reason why he didn't come home for a long time was because of this presentation. He says it was and lists off many other duties he had to complete during that time. Zhi Shu says he was afraid that he wouldn't be able to do well. Xiang Qin claps for him, and this brings a smile to his face.

He says that in her mind, he can do no wrong. But he says being perfect all the time is very pressuring. Xiang Qin tells him not to think that way, but he says that he wants to prove his capability, because only capable people can help others. He said that he knows that she puts him first in her life, but she can take other roles as well. He says that they should be free to explore and do other things, and that he doesn't want marriage to restrict them ("set your sights further"-like episode 2!).

At home, Xiang Qin has just finished a shower and is lying in bed. Zhi Shu puts her arm around her and says that it's his fault for making her feel insecure. He apologizes for not making things clear, and says there's still a lot for him to learn about relationships. Xiang Qin starts saying that it's her fault and that she still has lots to learn (but Zhi Shu interrupts her with a kiss).

Zhi Shu says that she has to learn how to make eggs without shells in them (lol). Xiang Qin says that she'll steadily improve to become a perfect wife. Zhi Shu replies with:


Then, Zhi Shu falls asleep on Xiang Qin (lol).

 The next morning Yu Shu is studying English, and his dad praises him for being so hard-working to live up to the reputation of his brother. Xiang Qin has just woken up and she enters, saying that she'll make breakfast for everyone. Unfortunately, everyone has already eaten. She eagerly says that she'll make coffee for Zhi Shu, however, her efforts are futile. Zhi Shu comes into the kitchen to make the coffee for her while she changes, and says that they'll go to school together.

It turns out that Zhi Shu leads her to a marriage registration center instead. While sitting down, Xiang Qin has "the look" (she wants to smile really big, but she restrains herself). Zhi Shu has "the look" on his face all the time haha, like below!

Xiang Qin asks him whether she'll be Jiang Yuan Xiang Qin now, and he says that women normally don't take their husbands' names nowadays. The person in charge of their registration tells Mr. and Mrs. Jiang to sign the papers, and Xiang Qin is ecstatic that she called her Mrs. Jiang. She's so excited about legally being Zhi Shu's wife that she stops signing her name on "Qin." Zhi Shu interrupts her thoughts by telling her to hurry up. They are now officially husband and wife!

Zhi Shu says that he wasn't planning on registering their marriage until after college, but after seeing that it made her unhappy, he decided to do it early. He says goodbye and calls Xiang Qin "wife." Xiang Qin is ecstatic again.

Reflecting on Zhi Shu's words about taking on other roles, she tells her best buds that this semester, her schedule is packed. She says she doesn't want to bother Zhi Shu all the time, so she says she might become a teacher. Her best buds say that if she's teaching their children, then they might as well have no children. They tell her that she's only suitable at being Zhi Shu's wife and that she should seriously reconsider all this teacher business.

She then remembers that she forgot to give Zhi Shu his textbook and races into the medical department.  She bumps into Zhou Chuan Jin and keeps pronouncing his name incorrectly. Zhi Shu comes out and she hurriedly hands him the textbook, only to realize that she brought him "The Medical Science of House," which happens to be his home-making mom's book (lol).

Chuan Jin snickers at the scene and says that he thought Zhi Shu would be more particular about his choices in women. Zhi Shu responds by saying that he IS very particular in his taste, and if Chuan Jin doesn't understand his taste, then he'll never understand him and will always be second best (oooooo).


Chuan Jin threatens him and says he'll definitely beat him on the next presentation. He then leaves, fuming. Zhi Shu then kicks Xiang Qin out of the medical room and tells her not to disrupt.

And here is when the story goes off on another tangent...to be honest this whole series is like, well, a series of tangents. There's a lot of scenes that are amusing but not very helpful to the over all plot. This may annoy a lot of people (me included, however, this happens to be an exception), so if you aren't interested in ArJoe more than the plot, this ain't for you.

Okay well I just had a tangent talking about tangents...what am I doing with my life...

The scene cuts to Zhi Shu, Xiang Qin, and the rest of the tennis club. Zhi Shu is playing tennis with a rag of his head (why the heck does he do that?) while many female admirers fawn over him. Xiang Qin is jealous as always, but I believe Zhi Shu is looking over at her while all the girls are massaging him and flirting with him. Senior starts yelling at the newbies and goes cray-cray with his tennis skills. He then starts to advertise cars (that's his day job) in a very amiable tone (bipolar much?).


At home, Xiang Qin discusses her ambition to become a teacher with Zhi Shu (which spawned out of Zhi Shu telling her to take other roles if you forgot). Zhi Shu is horrified and tells her that she can't take this responsibility lightly. Xiang Qin says she won't and she's not an idiot. Zhi Shu says that's just what she is. XQ says that he's the idiot and cookie crumbs spill out of her mouth (teehee). Zhi Shu is the one who has to clean up her mess, and Xiang Qin continues rambling on about being a teacher. She says that she'll have a test soon and she might not even get in anyway, so Zhi Shu shouldn't worry. Zhi Shu still looks dissatisfied, so the parents (Jiang Mama/Baba and Ah Cai) tell him to be optimistic about it.

It's time for the second presentation of the year. This time, Zhi Shu discusses how a patient's emotional health is equally important as physical health. Xiang Qin is drooling all over herself in pride, while her best friend (wait...I think I remember her name! Ah Mei? Ah something? I'll get it eventually) sleeps. Zhi Shu tries to be all deep about putting ourselves in people's shoes and thinking how our hearts would feel when hurt. He concludes the presentation, and Xiang Qin jumps up in the middle of the applause and says, "You're amazing Zhi Shu! Number 1!"

Later, Xiang Qin runs up to him and exclaims about how touched she was by his presentation. Zhi Shu says, "Thanks. If you'd shouted a bit softer, I would've thanked you more." Chuan Jin comes by and says that he'll get number one this time.

It's time to announce the results, and this time the top student isssss...Jiang Zhi Shu. No surprise there. Chuan Jin is once again second place. The professor explains to him it was because he used too many medical terms, and he stands by himself dejectedly.

Xiang Qin is bringing Zhi Shu coffee when she runs into Chuan Jin. She pities him because of his suffering, so she offers her coffee to him. She tries to comfort him by saying it's not his fault, and Chuan Jin says that she's so nice to not hold a grudge against him after all he's said about her. She says it's alright, and then he stands up and starts approaching her. He asks her how Zhi Shu would react if he kissed her.


He says he knows Zhi Shu will be pissed, because he's never seen Zhi Shu look at someone the way he looks at Xiang Qin. Chuan Jin goes on saying that Zhi Shu never loses his cool, but if he knew that if he kissed Xiang Qin...

Xiang Qin is flipping out and telling him not to do it. Chuan Jin says he wants to see how Zhi Shu looks when he's furious. Zhi Shu comes in and pushes Chuan Jin to the ground.

He says "It looks like this!" He then goes on to ask why Chuan Jin always does these stupid things. Chuan Jin says that he doesn't understand, because until Zhi Shu came along, he had always been number #1. His goal is to defeat Zhi Shu, and he is set on doing it. Zhi Shu says that Chuan Jin shouldn't base his goals around him, and that he should use his talents for the good of society. He says that Chuan Jin could've easily gone to Taiwan University (for the newbies, Zhi Shu goes to the equivalent of a community college because he didn't see the point of going to some prestigious school. Zi Yu (Tiffany Hsu) and Chuan Jin also goes to that community college because they are obsessed with Zhi Shu, even though they are also super smart) and says that he could become a successful surgical doctor.

Chuan Jin agrees on this new goal set by Zhi Shu and says that they'll postpone their rivalry until he becomes a successful surgeon. Xiang Qin tells him "Jia You (keep dat spirit)!" Chuan Jin, not expecting Xiang Qin's kindness, says he finally understands why Zhi Shu likes her and asks for her forgiveness. After being all sensible and logical, Zhi Shu can't hold it anymore and says, "BUT I'll still be annoying AND I'll always be ahead of you!" Chuan Jin retorts, "I'll be the #1 surgeon I tell you, #1!" Zhi Shu says, "I don't even want to be a surgeon, so our rivalry can end now in university. Good luck with your surgical career." Then, Zhi Shu and Xiang Qin leave together.

At home, Xiang Qin says that her practical teacher exam will begin very soon. Zhi Shu asks her which unlucky high school she will be teaching, and she says she'll be teaching their old high school. Yu Shu happens to be in this high school now, and he flips out. Later on, Xiang Qin begins daydreaming about all the kids idolizing her and sending her flowers.

It just so happens that she's been doing all this day dreaming in front of a mirror, with Zhi Shu witnessing the whole scene. He smirks amusedly and says she shouldn't imagine things that only happen every 800 years (btw I really like Zhi Shu's outfit today!!!!! His hairstyle and fashion improved exponentially in this sequel!)

At breakfast, Yu Shu tells her that she's stupid and despicable, and if she dares talk to him, then she's dead. Xiang Qin starts looking at him dreamily and mutters, "...despicable...why do you use the same words to talk to me as your brother? He's said the same thing to me before."

Xiang Qin races to school and hurriedly writes her name on the chalkboard. Unfortunately, she adds one extra stroke to the last letter of her name, and one of the students is quick to point this out. She erases and rewrites it in that totally awkward way of hers (which reminds you how freaking awesome Ariel Lin is at acting) and awkwardly says sorry. She's teaching Class A, so they are delving into complex Chinese idioms. She asks them to say idioms related to birds, and she writes them down on the chalkboard. Yu Shu points out that she wrote a lot of the words incorrectly, and asks her hard questions. This stumps her, and her evaluator looks at her sternly. She spends the rest of the day rehearsing what to say the next day in class.

I really appreciate this side of Xiang Qin; it's so pitiful how she works so hard but achieves so little and yet still maintains a positive attitude. She comes home late at night, and Zhi Shu says, "So teaching isn't as easy as you think, is it?"

While she is taking a bath, Zhi Shu goes to Yu Shu's room and asks him how Xiang Qin did. Yu Shu says she stuttered and mixed up idioms, and Zhi Shu pinches him (jia you! what a good husband :D).

Late into the night, Xiang Qin studies assiduously while Zhi Shu feigns sleep. Jiang Mama brings her a large midnight snack and they begin chattering loudly. Zhi Shu asks them if there's a need to build up their relationship during the night, and Jiang Mama hurriedly leaves the room. However, despite Zhi Shu's I'm-tired-and-pissed attitude, he tells Xiang Qin to keep up the good work and not to stay up too late.

The next day, Xiang Qin is teaching the class another idiom. Unfortunately, a student asks her what makes something an idiom, and Xiang Qin is stumped, but tries to give an explanation. Yu Shu continues challenging her and asking her rhetorical questions, when Jiang Mama storms into the room and tells Yu Shu to treat her sister-in-law more properly. Everyone in the class then finds out that they're related, and teases Yu Shu about it.

Xiang Qin then moves on to her next class, teaching Class F. They go over the same material, but this time she feels much more at ease (the kids struggle along just like her). She calls on Lin Hao Mei to read a paragraph, but Hao Mei is too distracted by watching Yu Shu play basketball outside. The students tell Xiang Qin that she's been secretly in love with Yu Shu since elementary school and that she really doesn't have a chance. Xiang Qin tells Hao Mei to come to her office after class and tells her the story of her and Zhi Shu. Meanwhile, a fellow teacher gives her Class A's exams for tomorrow (this will be relevant in the fourth episode).

Hao Mei, encouraged by Xiang Qin's story, goes to Class A to confess to Yu Shu. She starts getting off topic and rambling about her family, so Yu Shu tells her to get to the point. She says she wants to be friends with him, and he says he won't unless she gets into the top 100. Xiang Qin confronts him and says that his behavior is horrible, and they start sissy fighting.

Later at night, Xiang Qin and Jiang Mama start asking him all these questions about the type of girl he likes. Xiang Qin also recounts the story to Zhi Shu, and finds out that she doesn't know where Class A's exam papers are. She searches all over the house, but figures that she might have left it in her office. She puts on a black ninja suit and tries sneaking out, but Zhi Shu catches her. She makes up some BS about learning Tai Chi at night, etc. (I heard that this whole scene was improv'd...hecka good!), and gets out of Zhi Shu's grasp and leaves.

Saturday, August 24, 2013

The Road to the Great Perhaps Ch. 1: Unexpected Negativity, First Week Stress, Week's Book Haul

Here comes them minions with an important announcement!
Jesus will always love you very much!
Dave (the minion with two eyes) also will always love you very much!
Put a smile on your face!!


Lately I've been I've been losing sleep
dreaming about the things that we could be

Isn't "Counting Stars" a great song (that's not the point but still)...I guess this won't be like my regular blog posts. This will be a lot more personal and a lot less formal (aka I won't try to sound smart or anything and the grammar will probably be funky and everything out of wack. Don't judge! I usually write better...hopefully). I'll just talk about my first week of school and how I'm doing.

Today's Saturday, so I feel a lot better than I did during the week. I don't know, I tried to have a positive attitude coming into school (I mean honestly for me it isn't bad. I actually enjoy school). And usually I can maintain a positive attitude through everything and have resilience or whatever, but Monday was difficult for me (yes hear me whine about first world problems, I generally hate it when people do that, so I don't blame you if you get annoyed). I just felt rather sleepy throughout the day and then I came home and did homework for two hours? straight. And I still wasn't done, I was like half-way through (last year I only had two hours of homework per day, mostly math, but I wasn't going to complain because I should've expected this).

Then I went to piano class and I just felt like a failure. You know this summer I've really busted my butt to make sure that I don't disappoint my piano teacher and that I can perfect the art, but I still lack so much confidence and professionalism. It pisses me off and I just felt so small sitting on the bench making a ton of elementary errors and struggling to keep my wrists relaxed. I guess it really cut into my feeling of self-worth? I just felt really guilty because I had disappointed my teacher and I was tired and then I went home to finish the rest of my hw (another hour or so? I work pretty slowly). I wonder why honors classes give so much hw. The first day was exhausting itself, and I guess what really made me feel sad-ish was that this was only the beginning. It was bound to get more exhausting with my clubs kicking in and more expectations throughout the year. I dislike it when people say, "I am so done with school" so obviously I won't allow myself to think that way. I am not done with school so there is no use thinking that way. I guess I have a "dauntless" attitude when it comes to things I can't control (I'm reading Divergent and I'm actually really getting into it). At the same time, I felt like all the time that I spent with God during the summer on a day-to-day basis was slowly dwindling. Not only was I exhausted from homework, I was also shunning God out of my life. Ugh and life feels so dreary without God. It's like my own fault. Isn't Bon Iver's voice hecka weird? I'm sort of listening to his song right now.

And I guess it just continued like that, and with each extra expectation I just worked harder and harder and then yesterday was Friday. Which reminded me that the next day I would have to run three miles, had piano class on Monday, had to give a testimony about the Honduras trip next week, had voice lessons on Thursday, had to read the freaking 300 pg economics book for speech and debate, had to practice my knuckle pushups for taekwondo, etc. I dislike pressure, however I like to portray myself as someone who works efficiently and un-worriedly under pressure and stuff but I don't. And my bad mood just affected the way I interacted with my family and it was just not good. I snapped at my mom and brother. I guess around my friends I can put on a happy front better (but what can I say? sometimes they make me really happy anyway). So anyway on friday I just kept having all these expectations on replay in my head while trying to get my piano done and other responsibilities throughout the day. It was time to go to church. Some of Lana Del Rey's songs are super weird. To be honest I only think Young and Beautiful was super good.

sorry for being a stupid person with stupid first world problems.

well i was neutral about going to church because all the fridays are bible studies and im pretty neutral to that. and i was still pissed off because i dont know i just felt kind of sleepy and i needed to prepare for lots of stuff. so i entered the building and adeline waved to me with a big smile. when im in a crappy mood, i dislike it when everyone's smiling, so i waved back with a flat expression so she would get the hint. but then i entered youth group and anna-marie also said hi with a smile and she said, "what's wrong? it looks like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders." and then i went in and everyone i knew said hi with a smile. i guess i had always taken advantage of the community i have here in church, but you know that generally i'm a smiley person so it wasn't long before they started talking and made me smile and happy. it just felt so relaxing to touch a base of familiarity. anyway so yes that perked up my mood considerably so i feel better today (and there wasn't school too=more time at my leisure). i guess i really like church man. oh yes and also a counselor prayed after worship and i just felt that it was so freaking true. she said, "im so sad to see that we grew up with all these materials. im so sad to see that we don't find the need for You, God. im so sad to see that we compare our worth to our friends, our clothes, our grades. it just makes me so sad." gosh thats so true. i guess it really helped me see my week in perspective. ugh i shouldnt focus on these stupid world things, like missing the easiest problem in the world on fong's homework quiz and starting the year off with a B or worse. okay whatever it doesnt matter so yeah.

yes so i guess i feel better now :3 and church is tomorrow too! i guess people would look at me and say that im weird for looking forward to church but its actually really nice :)

okay lets see
random updates

this week or so ive come across three pretty good books. what a lucky catch. cuckoo's calling was pretty whimsical for a murder mystery (not nearly as much as harry potter though lol) but i never finished it because im slow and i was busy studying or something so i had to return it because its one of those new books that you can only renew once. well i read the summary on wiki and i guess im glad i didnt finish because the ending is shocking and i dont deal with shock/horror/whatever well. so yup im glad i wasnt creeped out or anything while reading the book.

and i started divergent! finally! its oddly very charming; sometimes tris' attitude of wanting to prove herself becomes sort of irksome (ugh pride, even though im being hypocritical) but otherwise she and four and the rest of the characters are super cool. its sort of a page-turner! i can definitely put it down, but ive been a lot more eager to read this book than all the other books ive read for the past....two months? i forgot the last time that i was this into a book! maybe looking for alaska and my sister's keeper. but anyway four is pretty attractive, character-wise. i dont even know why yet. yes horrible analysis but im feeling lazy today so...

oh yeah and so today i found this book in church called i kissed dating goodbye. well it discusses a lot about emotional/commitment proportions (as in, the proportion should be equal). well ive never been in a relationship before but its pretty interesting because when envisioning it (no, i am not a creeper who envisions it all the time) i pretty much focus on the emotional dependence and stuff. but this book stresses the importance of making sure that you can be committed to a relationship before venturing too deep (and potentially surfacing emotionally harmed). so yup it was pretty interesting.

oh listen to tiptoe love! from in time with you! its so relaxing and makes me feel better~~~

Sunday, August 18, 2013

They Kiss Again Ep 2 Recap

It's Episode Twoo!
I remember when I first watched this ep I was all :( because it's pretty much Xiang Qin being sad the whole time.
But don't worry, the director loads all the goodies in ep 3!
Anyway...
Xiang Qin and Zhi Shu are continuing their eventful honeymoon in Guam...
The episode begins with Zhi Shu and Xiang Qin in a luxurious limousine. Xiang Qin asks Zhi Shu how he managed to get it, and Zhi Shu replies that it's because his English is good. She then asks him where they are going, and he says she'll see when they get there.

It turns out their destination is a private jet! Zhi Shu explains that no one will be able to bother them when they're up in the air (cough Mary cough Jiang Family cough).


In the jet/helicopter/plane/yeah, Zhi Shu tells Xiang Qin that people only realize how large the world is and how much there is left to accomplish when they are up in the air. He encourages her to set her sights further. Xiang Qin doesn't quite understand, but she says she'll try to be less narrow-minded like him. Then they fly high in the sky, finally having the opportunity to enjoy their marriage in this whole mess.
 The scene cuts straight into their airplane ride home, which is similar to their first flight (the nonchalant Zhi Shu, Xiang Qin lamenting their limited time together; even Mary and Ah Qiao are behaving all cuddly-cuddly in the seats next door. The Jiang family are a few rows behind). Xiang Qin tells Zhi Shu that they didn't even take that many pictures and Zhi Shu tells her not to worry about it. When Xiang Qin asks why, he says nevermind. XQ is still oblivious to the fact that her in-laws tagged along.
Meanwhile, Jiang Mama and Jiang Baba are avidly looking over the many pictures they took.

The Jiang family arrives back to the airport and hurriedly meets with Ah Cai to put up two large banners welcoming Zhi Shu and Xiang Qin home. When Zhi Shu and Xiang Qin arrives, Xiang Qin asks if the luggage behind them belongs to them. The Jiangs say yes it is and that they all went on vacation while ZS and XQ were gone. Xiang Qin asks where, and Mama and Baba say Japan and India at the same time (smooth coordination :P). They then explain by saying that Yu Shu went to India while Jiang Mama went to Japan. Xiang Qin buys this, while Zhi Shu looks all smug (lawls). They go on discussing where they got their I <3 Guam T-shirts, and Xiang Qin buys this excuse as well.

Ah Cai is driving Zhi Shu and Xiang Qin home and mentions that they all moved to a new home. Jiang Mama calls it ZS & XQ's little love nest (she even had the words on the outside of the house, lol).

She shows Xiang Qin a manga family portrait and encourages her to have kids.

They all go around admiring the various aspects of the house, and Zhi Shu finally enters his and Xiang Qin's room. Their bed is pink and decorated with lace and all the chairs are flowery. He expresses his unrelenting hate for it and storms out of the room. Meanwhile, Xiang Qin is gushing over how she loves it.

Zhi Shu discovers that his mom has already prepared a nursery room and goes ballistic (hahaha typical Jiang Mama).

Jiang Mama shows Xiang Qin that she's already made a blog to document ZS and her marriage. The website already has many pictures from their honeymoon, with Xiang Qin in them. This makes Xiang Qin confused, and Jiang Mama throws another excuse to cover her trip to Guam. Xiang Qin is then introduced to the nursery and goes all dreamy thinking about having Zhi Shu's kids.
Zhi Shu and Xiang Qin are on their lace bad the next morning and Xiang Qin's 10000 alarm clocks start ringing. She turns them off and spends time admiring "how cute her hubby looks while sleeping." She starts daydreaming about making delicious (hem hem) breakfast everyday for him and being the perfect wife. Her daydream Zhi Shu says the mushiest things (thank goodness real life Zhi Shu ain't like that) but hey it's Xiang Qin. What do you expect?

It turns out Xiang Qin fell back asleep and Zhi Shu is getting ready to leave the house! XQ has missed her golden opportunity, and Zhi Shu responds back to her with lots of sarcasm.


Xiang Qin goes back to school with her best buds, who playfully tease her about her worth in comparison to Zhi Shu's. Xiang Qin gets them very...exotic souvenirs, and some passerby-ers come by calling her Mrs. Jiang. This puts her in an extremely good mood and she happily walks away.

At home, Xiang Qin is beasting this wife role (in her mind at least) by taking off ZS's bag, massaging him, etc. Zhi Shu looks a bit weirded out, but he's used to all this after all!

At the kitchen table, the subject of registering ZS and XQ's marriage comes up. Xiang Qin is shocked to find out that she and Zhi Shu legally aren't married yet, and she tells Zhi Shu that they must register immediately. Zhi Shu nonchalantly replies by saying he has no time.
The Tennis club continues on, with Pei Zi Yu as the fierce new captain. Xiang Qin can't concentrate at all and mopes on the side benches about Zhi Shu not wanting to get registered. Senior pops in to visit (Zi Yu) and he starts talking to Xiang Qin, saying that he never thought her persistence would actually make her Zhi Shu's bride. Xiang Qin tells him that Zhi Shu doesn't want to register their marriage, and Senior is shocked. Xiang Qin asks him what Zhi Shu is thinking, and Zi Yu pops in. She says that Zhi Shu doesn't want to register the marriage because he's still testing things out. Once he realizes that Xiang Qin is not up to par, he'll divorce her. Xiang Qin is thoroughly offended and Zi Yu gleefully exclaims, "I STILL HAVE A CHANCE WITH HIM!"

At night, Xiang Qin starts doubting Zhi Shu's love for her. He calls her saying that he's still in the lab, but hangs up soon afterwards.

The next afternoon, Xiang Qin's best buds (forgot their names) tell her that since ZS is ignoring her, she should find something else to do with her time. She decides to take a teaching course because more vacation time=more time with Zhi Shu (facepalm).

She makes a lunch box of love for Zhi Shu and goes to deliver his lunch box, but she has to wait outside because no med students are allowed in the lab. She meets Chuan Jin, who says that Zhi Shu has a very interesting taste in women. Zhi Shu is too busy, so another doctor takes his lunch to him.

Meanwhile, Xiang Qin's best buds are looking at XQ and ZS's blog and comment on how Xiang Qin hasn't seen Zhi Shu in 30 hrs and he hasn't registered their marriage, which is super suspicious. Ah Jin overhears this and concludes that Zhi Shu is making Xiang Qin unhappy, so he goes to the med department to beat him up. He asks Zhi Shu why didn't he register their marriage, and Zhi Shu says he's busy and it's a family matter and has nothing to do with Ah Jin.

Xiang Qin arrives and spills her heart to Zhi Shu. She says she's been trying very hard to be a good wife but he's always gone and it really makes her sad. Zhi Shu says, "If that's what you really think, then don't even think about getting our marriage registered." Then, he turns away from the crying Xiang Qin and XQ runs away.

Zhi Shu opens up Xiang Qin's lunch box of love with a smile, noting the egg shells in the egg, the salty meat, and the soggy veggies. Idk I thought that was cute haha.

Xiang Qin is at home feeling depressed because of his ignoring her and his sharp words. She recalls their marriage day, when Zhi Shu promised her dad that he would take good care of her. She is very apprehensive about seeing him and is scared that he might ask her to divorce him.

In the university cafeteria, XQ hears everyone gossiping about her and ZS. XQ goes to Xing Fu Restaurant, but instead of finding comfort, Ah Cai tells her to be optimistic about Zhi Shu.

At the tennis courts, Xiang Qin mopes around again until SURPRISE SURPRISE! Zhi Shu comes strolling in the court in a suit, and tells Xiang Qin to come with him.
Zhi Shu leads Xiang Qin into a conference room full of official medical-looking people. He apologizes for being late and then starts making a speech about gene mutations. 



The End! Yeah, I know, barely anything happened and yet it took so much time. Well I guess the director wanted the audience to really feel Xiang Qin's angsty-ness about having to wait on Zhi Shu (because the audience certainly had to too). But wasn't it great when Zhi Shu came to the tennis courts? Awwww

I will recap ep 3...someday. Tomorrow school starts so idk if I will have as much time. This recap took me like 3 days (I was watching one part at a time to make sure everything was accurate).

Toodles! ArJoe for life (I feel like for this drama it's very hard to separate Xiang Qin and Zhi Shu from Ariel and Joe).